Nocturnal Musings #10: I Fear the Dark
Not literally. Darkness doesn’t bother me at all. I prefer night time over day time. But of course, it’s almost 4 am and I can’t sleep waiting for this diagnosis. I know what I think, and it’s not good.
Nocturnal Musings #9: Back to Before?
Here it is, 4:30 am on the last Monday of August. And I cannot sleep for anything. I’ve pretty much been on a night shift sleep schedule for the past month, where I go to bed between 3-5 am and get up anywhere between 2-6 pm. I’m a natural night owl; I take after…
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Nocturnal Musings #8: When You Learn Who Your Friends Are
I find myself awake at 6 am, only two hours after going to bed and only one hour after falling asleep, from waking up in a night sweat. How joyous. And I’m only 30. It’s happened a lot this year, so I can only think it must somehow be related to Mini. I’m not…
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Nocturnal Musings #6: Worries About the Future
What does the future have in store for me? If only I knew, or had even the smallest inkling of what may lie ahead.
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Nocturnal Musings #4: Nightmares
It’s 2 am. I’ve spent almost the last 36 hours in bed. I was planning on getting up today, but I woke up with a horrible migraine. Thankfully, now that I’m off the meds for my brain tumor, I can take my abortive migraine meds, so I was feeling a little better within an…
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Nocturnal Musings #3: Dizzy
It’s 3 am. I was so far behind on sleep from the last few days of not being able to sleep hardly at all that, having gotten up at 7 am when David left for work, I slept from 3 pm-12:30 am. (David snuck in and took that picture when he got home. He…
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Nocturnal Musings #2: Red Tape
It’s 3:40 am. I went to bed at 8 pm since I didn’t sleep the whole night of my depressive episode, wasn’t able to calm myself down until noon, and only got 2 hours of sleep in the afternoon before I got woken up by unnecessary phone calls. Two hours out of 24 when…
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The Rabbit Hole
*Warning: this post may contain triggers for self-harm and material which may be upsetting. Please stay safe and steer clear of this post if you have these triggers.* This is going to be one of those sleepless nights. I slept from 4 am-2pm yesterday, but I’m not at all tired yet and I have…
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Why?
As yet another month of 2016 begins and the summer ebbs on, I am left to reflect. Sorry, it’s just something I do late at night, and it’s late at night here in northeast Ohio. Or actually, really early in the morning. My previous post July-A Month in Review was a reflection on all…
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Nocturnal Musings #1
Can’t sleep. Painsomnia again. I guess part of the reason that Thursday was such a good pain day for me is because I literally spent 23 hours in bed. It just happens once every week or two as a result of my body rebelling against life, so of course I wasn’t in pain since…
