June Book Haul

All book blurbs are from Goodreads.

This month I selected two books from the Book of the Month club.

IMG_1371Chemistry by Weike Wang (2017). I’m not quite sure what drew me to this one, but I guess I’ll find out when I read it.

 

 

IMG_1372Theft by Finding: Diaries (1977-2002) by David Sedaris (2017). Ok, I’ll be the first to admit I don’t know who David Sedaris is. All I know about him is he’s supposedly very funny. I was drawn to this 500+ page behemoth because of its curious format: a diary.

Now for my Amazon finds. Continue reading “June Book Haul”

Nocturnal Musings #23: Out of Hell

I have to go there today.

That place.

That hospital of which I am deeply afraid.

For a follow-up visit with my endocrinologist to check my prolactin to make sure my tumor is still in check, even though my MRI from two months ago (7 months post-op) was clear.

I can already smell the smells. Starbucks, of all things. Alcohol wipes. Plastic tubing. Fluid bags from patients going for walks. I can smell a TPN fifty yards away. Occupational hazard.

I can already see the blindingly white walls and stainless steel everything that provide zero comfort to a terrified patient. And possibly a need for sunglasses.

I can already hear the ever-present music that is supposed to be soothing playing over hidden speakers. Continue reading “Nocturnal Musings #23: Out of Hell”

Share Your World: June 26, 2017

This will be a weekly post of the most random of random questions to answer- to share my world! Thanks to Cee’s blog for being the brainchild behind this!

What goal are you working on now? Your goal can be something fun or extremely serious. Have fun with this question. Trying to live as normal a life as possible given my chronic illnesses. It’s become more of a challenge as time goes on. I hate the term “new normal” because there’s nothing normal about the way my illnesses are making me live, so I’m trying to not look at it that way. Continue reading “Share Your World: June 26, 2017”

Are You Like Me?

I think I need to take a break from reading memoirs. But I can’t seem to stop. My last four books:

IMG_1341Still Waiting by Ann Swindell. Faithfully encouraging and integrates the story of the Bleeding Woman (one of my favorite parts of the Gospels).

“From my own perspective, I couldn’t see any reason why God wouldn’t heal me, why He wouldn’t change my struggle into a victorious cure. Wouldn’t He get all the glory? All the doctors and therapies and supplements hadn’t helped me, so clearly He would get the attention and fame if He healed me. Wouldn’t He show Himself to be God when no one else could heal?

“Why wouldn’t He heal me? Why?” Still Waiting, page 107

Continue reading “Are You Like Me?”

Friends, Can You Help Me?

I’ll try to keep this short and sweet so as to not burden anyone.

I need help from you, my faithful readers.

The brain fog caused by one of my medical conditions, POTS, a form of dysautonomia, has made it monumentally difficult for me to think. It’s like…my thoughts won’t connect, or certain parts of my brain won’t talk to each other. I can almost feel this void in the middle of my head, like a bridge is out over a river. I can feel an idea, or a sentence starting somewhere, but then it doesn’t get to where it needs to go, and it never materializes. I feel as though I’m stuck with all of these thoughts bouncing around in my head, but they won’t come out or even come to fruition.

I’m not using this as an excuse for my less than stellar writing as of late or for my general lack of writing altogether. I just can’t come up with anything that I think would be worth anyone’s while to read. So I’ve stopped writing. Or I’ll write something and immediately trash it because it’s not of a high enough standard for me to release to all of you.

So here’s where I need your help. Continue reading “Friends, Can You Help Me?”

Nocturnal Musings #22: Say Something…

I just don’t have the heart right now.

Nothing’s changed.

And maybe that’s the reason.

Say something…

You think you’re fine and then suddenly you’re not.

Again.

Biding my time.

Until what? Continue reading “Nocturnal Musings #22: Say Something…”