Time Bomb
Numb. Nervous. Yet ecstatic. That’s really what I’m feeling right now. A big wibbly wobbly ball of emotions that I can’t seem to get sorted out.
Nocturnal Musings #10: I Fear the Dark
Not literally. Darkness doesn’t bother me at all. I prefer night time over day time. But of course, it’s almost 4 am and I can’t sleep waiting for this diagnosis. I know what I think, and it’s not good.
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The Big Day?
If I thought last Friday was a big day, spending all day at the hospital for my various physical exams, blood work, and scans, I would say today actually outweighs it by several metric tons. I mean, I already knew I had a pituitary tumor. The question of course was had it changed in…
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Didn’t See This Coming
I’m not sure what to say right now. Today was a day that pushed me to my limits in ways I never thought I could be. Emotionally, I’m a mess. Mentally, I’m overwhelmed. Physically, I don’t know if I’ll ever sleep again until all this gets figured out.
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Back in the Hole
Today (or rather, yesterday at this point), was going to be such a good day. I slept well, despite my usual late 4:30 pm wake-up, but I felt good when I woke up and was looking forward to having a good day. Until I read my email. I received an email from my manager…
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Nocturnal Musings #9: Back to Before?
Here it is, 4:30 am on the last Monday of August. And I cannot sleep for anything. I’ve pretty much been on a night shift sleep schedule for the past month, where I go to bed between 3-5 am and get up anywhere between 2-6 pm. I’m a natural night owl; I take after…
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One Hundred
This is my 100th post. It’s hard to believe I’ve come that far already. My intention in starting this blog was to raise awareness of various chronic illnesses, particularly the ones I suffer from. Endometriosis. Adenomyosis. Celiac disease. Infertility. Depression. Social anxiety disorder. That stupid brain tumor. Yet I’ve also found that I find…
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MRIs, CT scans, and Blood Tests, Oh My!
I don’t remember the last time I was exhausted as I was when I got home from the hospital yesterday after a day full of pre-op testing for my brain surgery, which is in 12 days and counting. I’ve had numerous surgeries (this will be number five), but none of them required the extreme…
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It’s Getting Real!
Today I will be spending all day at the hospital for my pre-op testing for my brain surgery, which is less than two weeks away now! It’s going to be a long and exhausting day for someone who barely gets out of bed anymore, but at least I’ll have my dad to keep me…
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Reason to Sing
Coping with multiple chronic illnesses is challenging. Very challenging. It’s hard to know how you will feel one day to the next. When my husband asked me if I was going to feel well enough to get to my doctor’s appointments in a few days, I had to remind him I don’t know how…
