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In Which People I’ve Never Met Become My Friends

In Which People I’ve Never Met Become My Friends

I’ve always been a difficult person to be friends with. And I’m not easy to love. Although life didn’t start out that way. One day in pre-school, my mom was shocked to see me sitting at a table with all the little boys in the class crowding around me, the only girl at the table. If only I had such admiration ten years later! In all seriousness, I think a lot of my friend-making difficulty stems from my social anxiety,…

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Share Your World: Ribbonrx Edition: April 3, 2017

Share Your World: Ribbonrx Edition: April 3, 2017

This will be a weekly post of the most random of random questions to answer- to share my world! Unfortunately, Cee has been ill and wasn’t able to prepare the challenge questions for this week, but fear not! I pulled out some questions from a journal prompt I did last week that fits the bill! So, onward! What’s something you like to do the old-fashioned way? I guess it depends on how old-fashioned you’re talking about. I love modern technology;…

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Share Your World- March 20, 2017

Share Your World- March 20, 2017

This will be a weekly post of the most random of random questions to answer- to share my world! Thanks to Cee’s blog for being the brainchild behind this! How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? This is a very interesting question. Do I not know how old I am because I am ignorant of the concept of time? Or because I am a Time Lord? (Should I open that fob watch…?) If I…

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Have Yourself a Spoonie Little Christmas

Have Yourself a Spoonie Little Christmas

Even though I was diagnosed with endometriosis in 2014, I have to say this Christmas will really be my first as a true spoonie. (Not sure what I mean when I say spoonie? Check it out here to learn about the Spoon Theory.) 2016 added a whole mountain range of problems to my health history, all of which I’ve had to climb to overcome. (And considering the Grand Canyon fiasco from 2013, I don’t have the greatest climbing skills…but that’s another blog…

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Pre-Op Day…Again!

Pre-Op Day…Again!

Having three surgeries in four months makes for a lot of pre-op testing. Today was pre-op day for surgery number three in 2016-placement of the Pipeline Embolization Device for my aneurysm. The day began far too early. I went to bed at midnight because my first appointment was at 8:15 am. Unfortunately, I woke up at 3:30 am and couldn’t fall back asleep. I tried going upstairs at 5 am to snuggle with my black kitty Luna on “her” bed,…

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Identity Crisis

Identity Crisis

I once had a coworker tell me, “We just want the old Laura back.” It was at a time earlier this year when I went on my first continuous leave from work in the hopes that the rest would break the cycle of migraines I had found myself in. Everyone knew that something was wrong and that I wasn’t my usual self. What no one knew then was that it was the beginning of something far more insidious that I…

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Look Back at Me

Look Back at Me

Trigger warning: depression and self harm Last night was a rough night. Not as bad as it could have been. Just some tears and feeling sorry for myself. It’s always worst late at night, especially after David goes to bed (I can probably count on one hand the number of times I’ve gone to bed before him in the past 6 1/2 years of marriage.) I filled up a couple pages in my journal with my feelings, since writing it…

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Don’t Worry, Be…What?

Don’t Worry, Be…What?

What if I can’t? I can’t stop worrying about the future, even though I know it’s in God’s hands. I’m not sure what He wants me to do, and right now it scares me. I have a huge decision to make that I don’t know if I’m capable of making. I can’t find anything that makes me happy. Things that used to make me happy no longer give me any sense of joy whatsoever. I even put out some Christmas…

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Published on The Mighty!

Published on The Mighty!

Last night, after hiding in my bedroom to avoid trick-or-treaters (Halloween is the worst when you’re having fertility problems), I received a huge shock in the form of an email stating that a past blog post from August I submitted a week and a half ago was published on The Mighty! I was absolutely floored that my first submission was accepted! You can read it here! The original post can be found here. This post is especially fitting since it’s…

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The End of an Era

The End of an Era

The time has come. Here it is, October 23, 2016. My last day of a four and a half month long medical leave. 136 days, to be exact. Most of those days were spent in bed. I would be sitting up for the most part, blogging or writing or reading my Bible, but I had to stay in bed because dizziness could come upon me so quickly, I had to be able to lie down immediately if a dizzy spell…

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