What do you do when you feel you’re not being heard?
I don’t think it’s their fault.
It’s not their fault.
It’s my fault.
My mind is such a foggy mess right now. It’s like there’s a short somewhere, or a connection that’s gone bad.
I have all these things I want to say, I need to say, but I can’t think of what they are. I feel as though I’m going to explode with thoughts that can’t even come to fruition.
I can’t speak them.
I can’t write them.
I can’t even think them.
How do I-
You’d think it would be noisy in my head, with all those thoughts jumbled up. But it’s so very quiet; the thoughts aren’t even being birthed.
I can’t explain what I’m feeling because I can’t think of the words to explain how I’m feeling. My feelings aren’t complicated; the words just aren’t there.
I can’t even pray. All I can do is say, “Lord, Romans 8:26-27.”
“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.” Romans 8:26-27
It’s making my depression worse. My brain is locked in a cage for which there doesn’t seem to be a key. How do I get help for feelings when I can’t explain what I’m feeling?
I know why it’s happening. It’s brain fog from my POTS. Since so much blood is pooling in my lower extremities, and I don’t even have enough blood to begin with, not enough blood is getting to my brain. It’s a very real, very scary thing. David has seen it happen in person and it scared him the first time.
How do I fix this?
I need to be heard.
But I don’t know what I’m trying to say.