The Light

Like an unsung melody
The truth is waiting there for you to find it
It’s not a blight, but a remedy
A clear reminder of how it began
Deep inside your memory
Turned away as you struggled to find it
You heard the call as you walked away
A voice of calm from within the silence
And for what seemed an eternity
You’re waiting, hoping it would call out again
You heard the shadow reckoning
Then your fears seemed to keep you blinded
You held your guard as you walked away

When you think all is forsaken
Listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

An unforgivable tragedy
The answer isn’t where you think you’d find it
Prepare yourself for the reckoning
For when your world seems to crumble again
Don’t be afraid, don’t turn away
You’re the one who can redefine it
Don’t let hope become a memory
Let the shadow permeate your mind and
Reveal the thoughts that were tucked away
So that the door can be opened again
Within your darkest memories
Lies the answer if you dare to find it
Don’t let hope become a memory

When you think all is forsaken
Listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

Sickening, weakening
Don’t let another somber pariah consume your soul
You need strengthening, toughening
It takes an inner dark to rekindle the fire burning in you
Ignite the fire within you

When you think all is forsaken
Listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness can show you the light

Don’t ignore, listen to me now (all is not forsaken)
You need never feel broken again
Sometimes darkness
Can show you the light…

“The Light” (Disturbed)

I just cannot deal today. I am so completely doneΒ with everything that my body is doing to me. I’ve had it up to here with this dysautonomia thing.

Haven’t I suffered enough? I just want this to be over. I want to be normal again, or as close to normal as I can be. I want a quality of life that doesn’t involve being stuck on the couch all day because if I stand up, my body doesn’t know how to compensate and I have to sit or lay down right away to avoid being involuntarily returned to a flat position.

I HATE MY BODY. I HATE MY LIFE. I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER. (Although as an FYI, you really don’t need to worry about me, I’m not even thinking about doing anything harmful.)

I have this song on repeat because it so incredibly encompasses everythingΒ right now. It really is a beautiful song for being a bit heavy. Please check out the music video. It does an amazing job of depicting the lyrics of the song through the scenes it portrays, especially with medical stuff being involved. (Beware of some graphic medical injury [burns]. I like the music video better because it so beautifully demonstrates the lyrics.) Never thought a secular song could do something like this.

I’m already in darkness. I’m just waiting for The Light…

πŸ’›ribbonrx

4 thoughts on “The Light”

  1. Damn girl, you’ve got some great skin. And your lips are to die for. You look beautiful in your agony. If I were to post a similar picture, it would scare a plant. Heck, it might even kill a plant. πŸ™‚

    Try to think of your medical conditions like the weather — it may be raining today, but the sun will eventually shine. Maybe not for long, but you’ll be able to see and feel the warmth on your face… tomorrow. πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you! That’s quite flattering. I’ve only ever heard those things once before in my life: I got a facial once and the lady said I had great skin, and then when I was in 6th grade, a make-up artist for our musical told me I had beautiful lips. But I don’t hear anything about my looks often because I think I’m ugly as sin. I grew up in theater with a lot of gorgeous people. But thank you for those compliments. And I’m sure you wouldn’t damage a plant in your pain.😝

      The sun’ll come out, tomorrow…β˜€οΈ

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      1. I’ve had yucky skin all my life. Even as an old lady, I still get pimples. It’s frustrating. I also have skinny lips, so I can understand the latest Kim Kardashian craze of fat lips. People spend a lot of money trying to get skin and lips like yours. Ugly as sin? You’re delusional. πŸ™‚

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